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I feel happy and sad at the same time!

On the one hand I am sooooo happy him because he is just plain excited and beyond happy! He seems to be enjoying the days God gave him so much more now! His smile when he talks is so much bigger.....and yet i am sad because I feel as though God closed a door I wanted to stay open for a while longer! It kind of hurt. And to find out from someone else was painful too.

On the other hand.....I am slightly ok with this because there are always other "fish in the sea" and I DO NOT need a guy to make me happy. I have the Lord and that should and does suffice! My smile is big because I have a great promise that even when darkness comes I will have light! And yet I can understand why he smiles bigger! I pray that his decission is the right one.

I am just going to focus on God this semester! I feel that is the right thing to do and I know its what God is telling me! He is all I need and I will sing to him forever....HOPEFULY I can get into the choir in heaven!

You are all I need when I'm surrounded,
You are all I need if I'm by myself,
You fill me when I'm empty,
There is nothing else,
You're all I need!