Feels Abroad, Let It All Out

Dear Self,
Please listen! I know you have never felt this way about any guy before and you don't want to screw things up but you are being too clingy! With you last boyfriend you never cared where he was....there was nothing in you that wanted to be with him at all times, why do you feel the need to be with this one at all times? Why do you feel different when you are with him? Why are you planning you life around him? I know you know that God planned you two together but why do you feel that you need him? You have NEVER needed ANY guy, so why this one? Tiffany told you that she admired your ableness to stay distant and not need any guy!

You have become a negative person as well! You need to be more positve and stop being so sad! There are great things in life that you are putting down because he is not there and your father loves you! Even though he isn't there alot cause he is working, he still loves you and will always love you! Focus on the good! Do what Rachel Iz. told you and focus on the good memories and wait out the time without him! Try to figure out why this guy is different from all the rest!
Always,
Your self

Dear Me,
I can't answer all of that! I don't understand why this is like this, but like Tiffany told me, I know what I am suppose to do and what God calls me to do. And I plan on being with him forever because I know God wants us to be together and I know we will be! All I have is that, I know God will put everything else in place after that! I have FAITH! But I do need to not be so negative!
Always,
Self!